Today I had a very clear conversation with one of my best friends (I have 2). This conversation helped me realize the mistake that I keep repeating. I keep meeting people of the same caliber, it always starts the same. Allow me to explain.
These are the words of the 3 men who have approached me professing their undying love for me. “I love you, you’re perfect or almost perfect”. “Your love is my reason for living”. “Never leave me”. Blah blah blah. They make me believe these words, which I always fall for and then one day decide that “I am crap”.”You are not what you appear to be”. Comments like that of course make me think “Have I in fact changed?” “Am I really not what I appear to be?” The answer is no. I always am the same person. I am explosive, flirty, demanding, loving, passionate, honest, no filter, but always with the most sincere and faithful love. That is who I am, nothing more than what people hate me or love me for. So when I analyze those words, I realize that these men project onto me the fact that they have changed, that they expected something of me, something they created in their minds and when I did not deliver to their liking I became damaged goods.
I am sorry for myself that I keep attracting and accepting people in my life that will ultimately say the thing at the end. The worst part is that I feel it and know it but I proceed anyway. One day I will learn. ONE DAY! Pray for me enlightenment!!
Have a good night. Blessings everyone!