I’ve been having so many thoughts lately that keep me completely involved in myself, but what I have noticed is that my thoughts always get me in trouble. I mean, I don’t want to say I am impulsive, although I was very impulsive back in the day. I am just tired of people’s excess of time, and how they choose to spend it. I tend to keep quiet as things are happening, until one day I cannot stay quiet any longer and I explode. Then it turns out I’m the bad guy. This tends to be a pattern with me. But what most people don’t realize, which I guess goes well with human behavior, is the fact that for the past x amount of months or certain events I have been silent. As long as I’m quiet everything is good, right?
There’s a quote by Meryl Streep that I am seeing all over FB, and although she’s a lot older than me, I kind of feel like her at this point in my life. With the exception the last sentence, where she talks about people and animals, I can say I agree with the rest.
“I no longer have patience for certain things, not because I’ve become arrogant, but simply because I reached a point in my life where I do not want to waste more time with what displeases me or hurts me. I have no patience for cynicism, excessive criticism and demands of any nature. I lost the will to please those who do not like me, to love those who do not love me and to smile at those who do not want to smile at me. I no longer spend a single minute on those who lie or want to manipulate. I decided not to coexist anymore with pretense, hypocrisy, dishonesty and cheap praise. I do not tolerate selective erudition nor academic arrogance. I do not adjust either to popular gossiping. I hate conflict and comparisons. I believe in a world of opposites and that’s why I avoid people with rigid and inflexible personalities. In friendship I dislike the lack of loyalty and betrayal. I do not get along with those who do not know how to give a compliment or a word of encouragement. Exaggerations bore me and I have difficulty accepting those who do not like animals. And on top of everything I have no patience for anyone who does not deserve my patience.”
One of my main faults is always caring too much for people’s opinions. Where has it led me? I have people who think they have a right to say whatever they want about my life. And the daring who get upset when I try to do something that doesn’t agree with their style of life. Yes, I have my imperfections, after all that’s what makes this life wonderful: human imperfection in a very perfect way. But I deserve to have peace, and to just disengage from the things that cause me to feel stressed, less, humiliated, abandoned, not appreciated, etc.
Have a Blessed Day!